It was 02:30 in the morning, I was on my third glass of wine and hadn’t eaten in 3 days. I had been in my pajamas for 36 hours straight and chain smoked 40 cigarettes (AND I don’t even smoke!)
There was a pile of laundry on the couch waiting to be ironed, used tissues everywhere. The house was absolute chaos and I didn’t feel like doing anything. I had this vision of being found dead of a broken heart at the age of 65 surrounded by a house full of cats, still wearing my pajamas with no love or man in my life… The only time I left the house I almost drove into a wall. My theory was if I could convert the emotional pain into a physical one then at least there was a pill I could take for that. How bizarre my thoughts were…
I was in complete despair and boy did I know the feeling of being out of control. NOTHING helped and I remembered thinking: “Why the hell is this happening to me?”
I had read every single book I could find on breaking up. I spoke to a therapist. I spoke to another therapist. I listened to music. I listened to a personal development CD. I spoke to friends. NOTHING HELPED. I literally felt like I was going to go crazy and be admitted into a mental institution. I was SO uncomfortable in my own skin and just wanted to feel normal again SO badly. The pain was unbearable.
So, allow me to explain why you are feeling so crazy. Here’s a little Biology lesson (chapter 8 in my new book Naked Divorce – 21 days to emotional freedom), so bare with me!
The thoughts and feelings that make up our consciousness correspond to biochemical activities in our brain. Two chemicals in particular, dopamine and serotonin, play a vital part in our behaviour. When we need something, dopamine is released and gives us the drive to get it. Once we have got it, we reward ourselves with a serotonin release. These neuro-chemicals affect our feelings. If we have too much dopamine and not enough serotonin, we experience a chronic feeling of craving and longing. Some of the most painful effects of heartbreak are caused by this longing. The dopamine makes us jittery and restless and drives us to do something, anything to get what we want – even if we know that rationally it won’t work. We get urges to drive past our ex’s house, to check his Facebook account, call them up, talk to their friends. These urges subside when our body releases serotonin. The longing ceases and we feel calm.
The techniques used within the Naked Divorce program influence the critical variables in your thinking which can alter the neuro-chemicals in your mind and body. When you learn how to think about your ex in a different way you change the way your body is reacting. You no longer feel the same. You have rewritten the operating software of your brain and you cannot run the old programs any more. The way you think about him, your past and your future is released from the repetitive, painful thinking.
Heartbreak is a very strange experience – a distress. It is intensely painful and even though we hate the feeling of heartbreak, we find ourselves compelled to go over and over memories and fantasies which make the feeling worse. A break up can be just like a death – a betrayal. You have lost your future with this person but the past is also undermined – it leads you to question everything… All the meaning you built up in your life has been cancelled. When an important love relationship ends, a range of different responses is triggered. We feel loss, pain, our balance is upset and our feelings change from one minute to the next. We long for our ex, we are desperate to see them and the next minute we want to rip their heads off. This volatility and confusion adds to the craziness.
If you can relate to what I am saying about feeling SO out of control then the good news is:
YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND
NONE OF THIS ‘OUT OF CONTROL FEELING’ IS YOUR FAULT.
No one was ever pulled aside in high school and taught how to handle the pain and suffering of a break up.
It’s ok to feel like you are going mental.
So, what to do about it?
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What you have described is exactly how I feel. The longing, the pain and then wanting to kill him. Reading your introduction set me off because I am British but my ex husband is South African. Hearing you are from SA brought up memories that I want to go away. It is almost 2 years since we seperated, my ex husn=band wants me back and I have fought against it. I think the seratonim and dopamine have something to do with it. At times I am desperate to hear from him, it calms me down but doesnt make me go back. Things kick off and I become ridiculously jealous of his girlfriend (who he would dump ay any moment) but when he does end it with her I do not want him! I feel like I am going insane and sometimes feel going back is my only option to escape this madness. Im unhappy all the time, I havent felt like ‘me’ since I walked out the door.
I dont know why I cant just get on with my life. People tell me I am on self-destruct. It is not intentional I am just unable to control my feelings. They control me. I am so exhausted by it, if I didnt have my son I think I would have driven my own car into a wall by now. I check everything out (the gf’s facebook) knowing it will end in disaster and me going insane but can I stop myself? I just cant. I hope there is an answer to this an end because my life is passing by in a blur of fog. There is no joy left in life that I can find.
Hey Abbey – there IS hope. My experience with all my clients is that the women who go through my program AND do well have hit a point of being completely fed up of suffering and being miserable after their divorce. They are desperate to move on and they will do ANYTHING to shift out of this misery and this commitment is what moves them to transformation. So the only person who can control the pace of your healing is you. Time doesn’t heal wounds but rather what you do with the time that matters. If you really don’t want to end up as an old lady with cats, then take charge of your healing. If you want support, I am here. You can do it!
Hey Abbey – I TOTALLY understand how that feels. How are you doing now? xxAdele
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